* the moth.

❝

I hate you for what you did
And I miss you like a little kid
I faked it every time, but that's alright
I can hardly feel anything, I hardly feel anything at all.

- pheobe bridgers , "motion sickness"

❝ dossier.

last updated :··· 5/13/2025

···character name······ellie williams.
···other names / aliases······kiddo , el ,
···d.o.b······ march 18th, 2019
···gender······nonb. ( hehim )
···species······ human. immune to the cordyceps virus.
···ethnicity······ white.
···nationality······ american.
···birthplace······ boston, massachusetts.
···current location······???
···occupation······former jackson patrolman.

···spoken languages······english
···ailments······details
···distinguishing markings / tattoos······tattoo of a fern on his right arm, cover-up of the bite he sustained at fourteen and the chemical burn he used to disguise it.
···speech······etc etc
···height······5"5'
···build······lean wiry build. athletic.

···positive traits······decisive, resourceful, logical, realistic.
···negative traits······deceitful, impulsive, asocial, hostile.
···likes······likes ; guitar playing , comic books , older history / dinosaurs and prehistoric textbooks , astrology &&. space , writing haikus &&. doodling , stargazing , animals in the wild / zoos
···dislikes······etc etc
···skills and hobbies······etc etc
···mbti······ISFP
···enneagram······4W3 SP/SX

❝ statistics.

character skillset :···

···································dexterity
······················································stubbornness
········............········...........·········empathy
·····.....................................····teamwork
··············································..·creativity

agility·······················.........................············
speed······················································
resilience···················..................······
hand to hand combat·····.............····
melee combat···············································

···APPEARANCE······Ellie has auburn hair and stands at 5 feet 5 inches (165 cm). He has bright green eyes, fair skin with freckles, and a scar bisecting his right eyebrow. His thin, wiry stature speaks to his resilience and agility, essential traits for surviving in a post-apocalyptic world. Several years after the events of Salt Lake Hospital, his hair has darkened, and he now sports a distinctive tattoo on his right arm. His jawline has become more refined, and he appears taller and more mature. Additionally, his voice has deepened, reflecting the significant changes and growth he has undergone.Ellie is a slender white girl whose frame, while naturally thin, is toned and defined from the relentless physical demands of surviving in a post-apocalyptic world. His daily routine of running, climbing, and fighting has sculpted lean muscles, giving him a wiry strength. His fair skin is marked by freckles and scars, testament to the harsh realities he faces. Despite his slight build, he moves with a lithe, agile grace, every movement efficient and purposeful. His bright green eyes, filled with determination and a glimmer of youthful defiance, contrast sharply with the darker undertones of his existence. His auburn hair, now darker and often pulled back to keep out of his way, frames a face that is both youthful and weathered, bearing the hallmarks of his hard-earned resilience

• go to character backstory

❝ background.

trigger warnings :··· character death , surgery.

···SUMMARY······Ellie’s early life was marked by the harsh realities of growing up as an orphan within the confines of the Boston quarantine zone. This environment, rife with military oversight and constant threats, led him to attend a military preparatory school. It was there that he formed a significant and profound friendship with Riley Abel, another girl navigating the same grim circumstances. Their bond deepened over time, providing a semblance of normalcy and companionship amidst the chaos.
At the age of fourteen, a pivotal moment occurred that would alter the trajectory of Ellie’s life forever.Both he and Riley were infected with Cordyceps, a typically fatal condition. In a miraculous twist of fate, Ellie discovered he was immune to the infection, an anomaly that would position her at the center of a potential breakthrough in the fight against the epidemic. Marlene, the leader of the Fireflies and a close friend of Ellie’s deceased mother, recognized the immense significance of Ellie’s immunity. She believed Ellie could be the key to reverse-engineering a vaccine that could save humanity from the Cordyceps plague.

Marlene entrusted Joel Miller, a seasoned smuggler, with the critical task of escorting Ellie out of the Boston QZ to the Fireflies’ laboratory. What was intended to be a straightforward mission quickly evolved into a perilous, year-long odyssey across a post-apocalyptic America. Throughout this journey, Joel and Ellie encountered numerous dangers and forged a deep, unbreakable bond, transforming their relationship from mere allies into a father-daughter dynamic.Upon their arrival at the Fireflies’ facility in Salt Lake City, a devastating revelation awaited them. Joel learned that the creation of a vaccine would necessitate Ellie’s death, as the procedure required extracting the infected part of his brain. Unwilling to sacrifice Ellie, Joel made a fateful decision; he killed the head surgeon and rescued Ellie, escaping the facility amidst a hail of gunfire. They eventually found refuge in Jackson, Wyoming, where they integrated into the community led by Joel’s brother, Tommy.Over the subsequent four years, Ellie’s initial gratitude toward Joel gradually transformed into resentment. he struggled with the moral implications of Joel’s actions, feeling deprived of the chance to fulfill what he perceived as his destiny to save humanity. This internal conflict festered until 2038, when Abby Anderson, a former Firefly and the vengeful daughter of the surgeon Joel had killed, brutally murdered Joel. This act of violence ignited a fierce desire for retribution within Ellie.

Ellie’s romantic interests lie with women, a facet of his identity that he navigates throughout his journey. She shares a significant kiss with Riley, and later becomes romantically involved with Dina. Before these relationships, he was with a girl named Cat. Joel, unaware of Ellie's sexual orientation at first, mistakenly thought she had feelings for Jesse. Eventually, he learned of her affection for Dina and supported her. ellie uses he/him pronouns and prefers masculine compliments—though he isn’t averse to using other pronouns as well.As the years passed, Ellie matured, becoming less talkative while maintaining his sharp sense of humor. However, the brutal murder of Joel by Abby’s group left a profound and traumatic mark on him. This devastating event fueled a fierce desire for vengeance that overshadowed her usual demeanor. In Seattle, his behavior became increasingly aggressive and violent, with his quest for revenge clouding his judgment. This was starkly evident when he chose to continue pursuing Abby at tommy’s request.

• Question

Driven by a relentless pursuit of justice, Ellie embarked on a tumultuous journey to Seattle, determined to confront and kill Abby. Despite his tenacity and the numerous obstacles she overcame, Ellie’s quest for vengeance proved ultimately unfulfilling. Exhausted and emotionally drained, she retreated to a tranquil life on a farm with his girlfriend, Dina, and their son, JJ. However, the lingering inability to forgive Abby gnawed at Ellie, compelling her to abandon his newfound family and resume his hunt for Abby in Santa Barbara.In the final confrontation, Ellie made the profound decision to spare Abby, a choice that marked a significant turning point in his emotional journey. He returned to the farm—sans dina and jj.* he was weary and scarred, but with a newfound understanding and acceptance of Joel’s decision to save him all those years ago. Ellie’s tumultuous path had come full circle, allowing him to reconcile with her past and find a semblance of peace amidst the enduring pain.

Having been raised in a harsh, post-apocalyptic environment where conventional norms and values have crumbled, Ellie embodies a complex mix of traits. he is notably rash, foul-mouthed, impulsive, and temperamental, unhesitant to employ violence or profanity to convey his feelings or achieve his goals. Despite this, Ellie retains a certain innocence and trust in people, having not yet encountered the absolute worst of human nature. This juxtaposition highlights a stark contrast to Joel's wary, morose, and cynical outlook on life after the outbreak.Ellie’s cleverness and wit are sharp and noticeable, driving him to do whatever it takes to ensure both his and Joel's survival. his resourcefulness and strong survival instincts complement his ability to take orders from Joel, though she makes it clear she does not need any "babysitting."his enthusiasm for the outside world stems from her confinement within the quarantine zone during his formative years. Ellie is fascinated by the remnants of pre-outbreak culture, collecting music, movies, books, and video games with a childlike wonder.Ellie also suffers from monophobia, a fear of being alone, which she confesses to Sam. This phobia manifests physically through her habit of rubbing his nose and wringing her hands in stressful situations. The roots of this fear trace back to the losses he has endured: her estranged father, deceased mother, and the deaths of her best friend Riley and guardian Tess, both victims of the Cordyceps infection while in her company. This pattern of loss extends to Sam, who also succumbs to the infection shortly after Ellie confides in him. his survivor's guilt is palpable when she expresses to Joel, upon returning to Tommy's community, her anguish over outliving those she cared about while they succumbed to the disease.Ellie's personality and behaviors are thus a blend of resilience and vulnerability, shaped by his environment and experiences. his ability to navigate the brutal world around her, while grappling with profound fears and losses.

❝ timeline.

···xx/xx/xxxx······key event details etc etc. go into short detail if you want or remove this section altogether.
···xx/xx/xxxx······i missed my bus and had to walk in the rain. turned up late to work. overall a terrible day.
···xx/xx/xxxx······it was a sunny day. the dog jumped over the fence to catch a ball.
···xx/xx/xxxx······another event or something. copy this into another line if you need more.

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❝ near & dear.

··JOEL MILLER·····probably one of the biggest inspirations in his life. he may not be his father, but he loves him like he is.· father figure.·
··TOMMY MILLER·····after joel's passing , he turns to tommy for advice and guidance. he isn’t joel , but he knows he'll be there for him all the same.· uncle figure.·
··TESS SERVOPOULOS·····tess was one of the figures who shaped ellie's very life. in the short time he knew tess, they bonded and grew very close. ellie still mourns her to this day.· mentor. idol.·
··DINA WOODWARD·····ellie would've murdered for dina. he did. he still will. unfortunately, his pride got the best of him and he let her go. he’s too self-destructive his her own good.· ex-girlfriend·

❝ abby.

··ABBY ANDERSON·····ellie doesn’t know why he let abby go. it’s a question he still asks himself to this day. maybe he saw a bit of himself in abby—maybe he saw a bit of joel. he’d rather not dwindle on it.“… the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him well enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. I think it’s impossible to really understand somebody, what they want, what they believe, and not love them the way they love themselves. And then, in that very moment when I love them.... I destroy them.” · enemy … ?·

···ONE.······i reserve the right to not roleplay w/ anyone i don't want to! i do not have tolerance for bigotry or anything of that sort. my character interps are all very dear to me and asking me to change any of them for the sake of relations is most likely an automatic block for me. i take boundaries very seriously when it comes to writing--my limits + triggers both being anything revolving s/a and self-harm. i refuse to write anything of that nature and it'll stay like that. that being said--i am ask to dm friendly! i love to plot and write outside of servers. i'm very friendly when it comes to discussing writing and i love coming up w/ silly memes and things for people who like my muses! i'm always open to relations and connections--please just ask!

···TWO.······BYI !! I SHIP ELLABS !!!! i enjoy writitng the complexities of abby and ellie’s parallels and their hatred/love for one another. i like to explore the thin line between detesting someone and adoring them. i am not pro-ship. i just like watching hot women fight and kiss. i am a full time college student and i don't usually have much free time on weekdays. i detest general stupidity and i like... kinda refuse to put up w/ it lol. dm me at your own whim but don't be upset when you irritate me and i go awol. be normal when interacting with me. much love.**

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